Last night, something deep broke open inside me.
Not loudly. Not with chaos. But with the quiet honesty of a soul choosing herself for the first time.
Section 1: The Sacred Space of Surrender
I was sitting on my patio.
Duke curled up on my lap like a sacred offering of comfort.
Dice at my feet, guarding the ground of my becoming.
And for the first time in a long time, I didn’t feel alone.
I felt held.
By my dogs.
By the stars.
By the presence of Jesus, not just beside me—but leading me.
Section 2: The Release
“This time, it’s me first.
And I will not abandon myself again.”
That sentence left my mouth like a spell.
And then… my body began to shake.
The weight of years, the pressure of proving, the ache of longing—it all poured out.
But it wasn’t sadness I felt.
It was freedom.
I’ve begged for someone to hold me.
But tonight—I held myself.
Section 3: The Divine Message
Spirit reminded me:
“It’s not that love wasn’t out there for you.
It’s that you kept giving it away before you gave it to yourself.”
That’s over now.
I am in my becoming.
And Duke and Dice, my little earth angels, were right there holding space.
Section 4: My Vow
This is more than a moment.
It’s a promise.
📖 It belongs in my memoir.
🃏 It’s a card in my oracle deck.
💌 It’s a vow I will whisper each morning:
“This time, it’s me first. And I will not abandon myself again.”
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With love & magic, 🦋♥️
Jenn SHEr The Divine Muse
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